Am I still your Hero ?

Dear little chocolate-cupcake,

I have to say you something. I swear, I love you. But since days I ask myself if I'm still your hero.. 
Can you tell me why you don't talk to me anymore? It hurts me to see that you don't trust me enough.
It seems as if I were a stranger to you. Tell me.. Why?
Why can't you talk to me if you're having problems? Why can't you talk to me if you're feeling bad?
Maybe you think I can't understand you, so you go and waste your time with him.
This boy, you call him "best friend". I'm confused. I were "he" before I became your boyfriend.
I were the one you come to if you have had problems. And now?
There's this distance between us. I don't live with you, I live next to you.
I ask myself everyday: "Why does she do that?", "Why is she talking only with "him" ?"
I despair.. It hurts me day by day but I can't do anything cuz I know, you need it. You need "him".
I will try to survive it, try to accept it. For you. Becuase I love you.
But don't ask me if I'm happy.. I will answer: "Sure. Why not?". I won't tell you what's going on with me.
Cuz I don't wanna argue. I wanna see you happy and if you're happy when you're only talking with the other boy..
I have to accept this fact.
But my wish is that you can talk with me again as before.
I wanna be your boyfriend and your best friend but I know I can't have both.
It's hard to accept it but I can't do anything against.
Don't think something wrong. I'm happy that you have someone you can go to if you're feeling bad.
The only thing which is hurting me is that I was this person before.
You think I don't understand you? Maybe, but you don't know if I do or if I just have another opinion.
All I wanted was to be allowed to be there for you..


Think about it.